updates

still loving teaching, although i'm exhausted right now- but that is because i started planning and teaching FULL days. after monday, i was so overwhelmed i wasn't quite sure what to do with myself. but already into day 3 and i am pretty used to it. i only have 2 weeks left at my current school, which saddens me deeply. i've just begun to form relationships with these kids and i'm not ready to leave and have to start all over again so soon!
here is something i have been thinking about- i am often so sure that i know what i want when it comes to certain things. i can be certain that things are meant to be one way or another and that i am in control of my own destiny. well, friends, let me tell you that this is just foolishness. i have humbling days (like today) where i realize that i have no idea what exactly it is i am looking for or what exactly it is i want, or rather what i need. that scares me (because i like to be in control). if i don't know what i want or what i need/what is best for me, then how will i know when it comes along??? yes, this is where faith comes in. and, like our good pal steven curtis chapman writes, "faith flowed like a river free and deep, and grace was not so hard to be believed but that was YESTERday...and what was close enough to touch now seems a world away..." lots of times our (my) faith wavers. so i'm realizing faith isn't having answers and believing that's what you'll get. faith is not knowing and believing the Lord will take care of you anyway.
working on this.