random things

i am sitting with dear friends at hastings and we are having fun just basically saying whatever comes to our mind. OK, I am having fun saying whatever comes to my mind. they are studying (trying) and i am bringing up stuff. it's pretty funny. i sold a book today on half.com. i really need to figure out how all that works. i guess i need to ship the book? yeah that would probably a good thing i think. at least they give you a grace period of a couple days to go get that done. i am excited though because i am going to put a little encouraging note in the package for the person i do not know, you know like "hope you have a great semester". so fun! and yeah, nerdy ok? so what.
i love my job. i love my class. my middle schoolers are just the best people in the world, even when they are being "struggles". also, my job is good for my self esteem. that sounds shallow. but it is so awesome and touching to hear your students shout your name in the halls or at lunch or after school and WANT to say hi to you. it makes you feel so valuable like maybe, just maybe you're making some kind of a difference in their lives. also, they say nice things to you. it's so cute.
i am in what i am calling "the waiting game". i have some big decisions to make here in the next couple of months and i am extremely apprehensive about making any of them. i would really love to have more of a "nudge" in a certain direction, but i'm afraid that i'm not going to get it from the Lord (is that called doubt?). But maybe i won't because He wants me to go in either direction and neither one is right or wrong. i don't know how i feel about that. i just feel like there HAS to be a right and wrong decision. i think i'm realizing that this needs more prayer.
i have an addiction to diet dr. pepper. it's reached monumental proportions. i decided today that i'd be willing to give up all other desserts (except cake on my birthday!) in lieu of being able to drink diet dr. pepper. yeah people. it's that good.