life

life is hard.
life is good.
life is hard, and good, and wonderful, and overwhelming, and so many other things all at the same time.
I am realizing more and more that I am a broken soul, glued back together by grace of God, fragile, still healing, and constantly learning, striving toward something that I can't see but I know is there.
but I am also so afraid. and weak.
yet I'm promised strength in my weakness.
"Lord, help me find it. Help me find You."

this song has gotten me through many nights for years, actually, when I couldn't pray the words myself.

Whisper to Me- Warren Barfield
I lay down and I close my eyes
but I won't go to sleep tonight
there's too much on my mind
Holy God, You seem to be
twice as far away from me
as You have ever been before
Hold me safely in Your arms
and clear my crowded mind
whisper words of peace
in the dark, whisper to me
oh, whisper
I'm afraid but they don't know it
I feel so weak but I can't show it
so here I lay, cryin out with tears
Hold my gently in Your arms
and calm my beating heart
whisper words of hope in the dark
whisper to me
Whisper, make the day sleep
make the noise cease
give me peace
whisper to me
I need to hear You whisper,
whisper to me
Hold me gently in Your arms
and calm my beating heart
whisper words of hope
in the dark, whisper
to me, words of hope
words of peace
whisper to me